Because! Because I want to be like them! Don't you see? I thought, when I was in France...
[She pauses and draws in a breath.] There were a boy in the room next to my family's. Marius, he were called. Marius Pontmercy. He played at being poor but one sniff to know he has money, and such learned friends. And him too, clever. He liked to read, you know? I watched him, ages ages, but when it came to, he chooses Cosette. Me, I am just the beggar girl. Why would he look at me for marriage? Whoring but not to love. He never saw me.
[Eponine smiles wistfully.] I dreamed of a new dress and a bit of fat, and fat enough for my breasts to plump up. I thought with my hair done, I would be pretty. I thought I could fit in... but they'll never let me in among them. I just - I wish I were pretty and good and mild and meek and that. But no. I am ugly, horrid, rotten. I am a ghost. I just want to be a part, you know? But they'll never let me. I will always be alone.
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Date: 2022-08-07 10:29 pm (UTC)[She pauses and draws in a breath.] There were a boy in the room next to my family's. Marius, he were called. Marius Pontmercy. He played at being poor but one sniff to know he has money, and such learned friends. And him too, clever. He liked to read, you know? I watched him, ages ages, but when it came to, he chooses Cosette. Me, I am just the beggar girl. Why would he look at me for marriage? Whoring but not to love. He never saw me.
[Eponine smiles wistfully.] I dreamed of a new dress and a bit of fat, and fat enough for my breasts to plump up. I thought with my hair done, I would be pretty. I thought I could fit in... but they'll never let me in among them. I just - I wish I were pretty and good and mild and meek and that. But no. I am ugly, horrid, rotten. I am a ghost. I just want to be a part, you know? But they'll never let me. I will always be alone.