Why don't you just say it then? You know in my head I fill in gaps. You tell me over and over, and everyone does say it. If you know I do it, then why are you shocked when it is done?

Kosem, you sleep and it is like being back in Paris. I can't be back in Paris. I don't want it to be so here. It's been horrible here and I have been all alone again. You can't look after me asleep.