[It's not the actions that makes her think of Osman. It's the pain he suffers. It's mirrored in Eponine. It's the poor choices and her determination not to listen. The hurt Kosem feels when she can't help Eponine.
Osman was a good man deep down. Others forced him on a path he would walk alone.]
He's suffering and surrounded by those that don't care for him. I hate what he's done. It's hurt me in a way that I can't put to words. He's still the child I raised though, still the same child I feed my milk, as I did my own children.
It's impossible for a mother to stop loving her child, no matter what he's done.
[Eponine purses her lips. Is it strange to be jealous of a murderous man who isn't even here? He has Kosem's unwavering support and love and yet, he chooses not to listen to her. If Eponine had had a mother like Kosem, maybe she wouldn't be the mess she is today.
Except she does have Kosem now and she has still done wrong.]
What about me? We're not blood. You don't have to love me, or even like me. If I've done wrong... if I did something so bad...
[She sighs]
End our contract, Kosem. Please. I will only drag you into my mess and we will both be in trouble. You don't have to be loyal to me like your bad son. I am just a gamine you have had the misfortune to cross. End it for your sake.
I do care for you, Eponine. If you let me, I could give you the same love. You can't keep pushing me away. If you at least trust me, it let me truly help you and show you what it means to have a mother.
[It's concerning that she's being told to break the contract. Something happened. It would be exhausting, but there was a chance that she might be able to help.]
What have you done? If you tell me, we can go from there and try to repair the situation.
[She's not sure if she wants to break the contract, but it's impossible to change Eponine's mind when she's made a decision.]
No... she's not woken up yet. But she has a bitch what barks every time I go near. She will have me whipped and jailed if I go near. And if I return it, she won't believe me that I took it to keep it safe.
[Eponine shrugs]
I am going to bury it in the graveyard. No lady will go digging there. But just in case, you might not want me no more, Kosem. Just in case that horrible woman says its me without proof.
It's possible she hasn't noticed it's missing. Eponine, I think you should return it. Whether she knows or not. Please take it back to where you found it instead of burying it. Otherwise, you will eventually find trouble.
[It might be impossible to convince her. Still, she will try.]
Which lady is it?
[Again, she might not tell her.]
I'm still willing to give you a contract, but I want you to return the items.
No. No, I will just bury them in the graveyard. No one will know they are there, and if they are found, no one will know who put them there. Even you won't know it's me, for I ain't told you what it is. It is good to have for a rainy day, I think. Just in case we should need 'em, no? Anyway, it is wrong to dig in a grave, Me, I don't care but others will have more care in it.
It isn't yours though. You don't have a need for it. I work enough to help keep us comfortable. You can have nice things and never worry about food. I won't accept anything stolen; the longer you keep it, the worse your punishment will be. Don't forget they have cameras, they monitor us. Eventually, they will see you.
[She goes to one of her shelves, Turkish by design and opens a small box. Coming back to Eponine, she offered out an emerald necklace to her.]
If you are worried about survival and want something to keep for a rainy day, take this. I'll give it to you willingly. I have more that I can part with. You don't need things from someone else. You can have mine.
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[It's not the actions that makes her think of Osman. It's the pain he suffers. It's mirrored in Eponine. It's the poor choices and her determination not to listen. The hurt Kosem feels when she can't help Eponine.
Osman was a good man deep down. Others forced him on a path he would walk alone.]
He's suffering and surrounded by those that don't care for him. I hate what he's done. It's hurt me in a way that I can't put to words. He's still the child I raised though, still the same child I feed my milk, as I did my own children.
It's impossible for a mother to stop loving her child, no matter what he's done.
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[Eponine purses her lips. Is it strange to be jealous of a murderous man who isn't even here? He has Kosem's unwavering support and love and yet, he chooses not to listen to her. If Eponine had had a mother like Kosem, maybe she wouldn't be the mess she is today.
Except she does have Kosem now and she has still done wrong.]
What about me? We're not blood. You don't have to love me, or even like me. If I've done wrong... if I did something so bad...
[She sighs]
End our contract, Kosem. Please. I will only drag you into my mess and we will both be in trouble. You don't have to be loyal to me like your bad son. I am just a gamine you have had the misfortune to cross. End it for your sake.
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[It's concerning that she's being told to break the contract. Something happened. It would be exhausting, but there was a chance that she might be able to help.]
What have you done? If you tell me, we can go from there and try to repair the situation.
[She's not sure if she wants to break the contract, but it's impossible to change Eponine's mind when she's made a decision.]
Let's talk first about this and then decide.
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[Eponine takes a breath.]
I took something. Well... some somethings. From someone. Not you. But... someone. And I... well... I let myself into their room? To do it?
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Has the person reported the item missing?
[That's the large question and the most worrying. If it's reported, there's little Kosem can do.]
Are you willing to fix this?
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[Eponine shrugs]
I am going to bury it in the graveyard. No lady will go digging there. But just in case, you might not want me no more, Kosem. Just in case that horrible woman says its me without proof.
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[It might be impossible to convince her. Still, she will try.]
Which lady is it?
[Again, she might not tell her.]
I'm still willing to give you a contract, but I want you to return the items.
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[Eponine shakes her head.]
No. No, I will just bury them in the graveyard. No one will know they are there, and if they are found, no one will know who put them there. Even you won't know it's me, for I ain't told you what it is. It is good to have for a rainy day, I think. Just in case we should need 'em, no? Anyway, it is wrong to dig in a grave, Me, I don't care but others will have more care in it.
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[She goes to one of her shelves, Turkish by design and opens a small box. Coming back to Eponine, she offered out an emerald necklace to her.]
If you are worried about survival and want something to keep for a rainy day, take this. I'll give it to you willingly. I have more that I can part with. You don't need things from someone else. You can have mine.