She is truly lovely. I feel like a child, but I do love her. I have decided to call her Sybilla. Isn’t it perfect? I feel almost as if I should play a tea party with her. But not here. Qi’ra wouldn’t like it, I don’t think.
[Eponine flushes.]
Well, it is bad. I hit a Sin Guard because he hit Agron… because. Well, because we were breaking the Elevator. Then I am battered by them. So now I must be on a leash in public because I’m a bad woman. Qi’ra takes me to Crimson and I sit, silent, for hours till she is done. I am so bored. Sybilla has truly made me feel better.
Thank you. I'm actually headed to the Crucible now. [ Hence the lack of trench and customary suit.
And, despite the fact it isn't the first compliment he's received, he blushes all the same. He won't ever get used to them. ]
Sometimes it's the simplest things that make us happy. [ Like a doll, or just spending time with someone you care about. Cooking together, though that's Castiel just watching since he tends to burn most things. ]
Ah, I see. I've been in trouble several times - they aren't exactly forgiving. Jail, the Zoo. The collar that de-powered me. I'm sorry they hurt you. [ The helplessness he often feels drives him wild with rage, but there's nothing he can do. Not without suffering a similar punishment. ] I'm glad she helps pass the time.
Well, you look nice. Perhaps I can come with you when I am allowed out again. [She smiles. As much as she likes to receive compliments, she loves to see other people appreciating hers.]
I've always wanted a doll. She's like a friend, no? And before here, I never had a friend. It's nice that here, we have chances at such things, isn't it? I cannot wait to be your friend properly, when I am allowed out again.
[She shrugs.] I like the Zoo. Even if you are sold? What does it matter? It has happened before. I don't really care about it. You just sing in your head and it goes away. This ain't so bad as last time. You know what they did? They tell me if I take my collar off, they will hit me, but they give me a broken collar so it constantly falls off. I couldn't sit down for weeks after wearing that thing for a month. And then two weeks in these thick mittens where I can't use my hands and a spit hood as well, so I cannot even eat or drink without help. That was the worst of everything. This is just boring.
It is nice, yes. I think I told you I didn't have many friends back home, just Dean and his brother, and their surrogate father. So this is a nice change, people liking me for me.
[ One could count Ellen and Jo, but they are gone and in heaven and Castiel still survives on. ]
I suppose you have a point, there are worse places to be. [ Like hell. ] That certainly seems like overkill for a punishment, I sincerely doubt it fit the crime.
[ Castiel personally thinks his was too much, but there wasn't a damned thing he could do about it. ]
I said I'd bite the Creator's balls off. And I spat at a Guard.
[She laughs.] I told you I'm not a nice person. I don't really deserve better though, or everyone does, I suppose. Nasty people don't get nice things. Or they shouldn't anyway. See, an angel playing with the devil and buying me treats. Perhaps even you are corrupted to my wickedness now, and I'll lead you into trouble too.
[Eponine cuddles her doll for a moment, looking anything but wicked.]
Are they here? Dean and them? Or are you all alone?
They gave me a collar too, when I threw mine away. They said I had to keep it on, or they'd beat my ass in public. Except, the collar was broke. My ass is so sore by the end of the three weeks it is bleeding and scarred and bright red. Malcolm got scared, I think. They made him watch one. He was scared.
[She shrugs it off.] They are not very nice to submissives here, Castiel. Your punishment is dreadful. But if you like trouble, me, I am happy to help you make it.
[She just wants friends, honestly, and if it means getting into trouble to keep them, she will willingly do it.]
What were they like? I have some brothers and a sister too. She is Azelma, and she is stupid. Always she cries. She is cold or hungry or something hurts or someone spits at her. As if we are not all so. I do what I can to save her, but... [She shrugs.] She has to learn. I take her beatings when I can, she makes that much fuss. And I have Gavroche, but he ran away and he lives in the elephant now. Sometimes he lets me sleep there too, but usually, no. He don't want my Pa or 'Parnasse to find him and bring him back. And my Ma had two babies but she sold 'em. I don't know what happened to them. They're lucky if they're dead.
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[She grins. She has very little filter.]
She is truly lovely. I feel like a child, but I do love her. I have decided to call her Sybilla. Isn’t it perfect? I feel almost as if I should play a tea party with her. But not here. Qi’ra wouldn’t like it, I don’t think.
[Eponine flushes.]
Well, it is bad. I hit a Sin Guard because he hit Agron… because. Well, because we were breaking the Elevator. Then I am battered by them. So now I must be on a leash in public because I’m a bad woman. Qi’ra takes me to Crimson and I sit, silent, for hours till she is done. I am so bored. Sybilla has truly made me feel better.
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And, despite the fact it isn't the first compliment he's received, he blushes all the same. He won't ever get used to them. ]
Sometimes it's the simplest things that make us happy. [ Like a doll, or just spending time with someone you care about. Cooking together, though that's Castiel just watching since he tends to burn most things. ]
Ah, I see. I've been in trouble several times - they aren't exactly forgiving. Jail, the Zoo. The collar that de-powered me. I'm sorry they hurt you. [ The helplessness he often feels drives him wild with rage, but there's nothing he can do. Not without suffering a similar punishment. ] I'm glad she helps pass the time.
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[She smiles. As much as she likes to receive compliments, she loves to see other people appreciating hers.]
I've always wanted a doll. She's like a friend, no? And before here, I never had a friend. It's nice that here, we have chances at such things, isn't it? I cannot wait to be your friend properly, when I am allowed out again.
[She shrugs.] I like the Zoo. Even if you are sold? What does it matter? It has happened before. I don't really care about it. You just sing in your head and it goes away. This ain't so bad as last time. You know what they did? They tell me if I take my collar off, they will hit me, but they give me a broken collar so it constantly falls off. I couldn't sit down for weeks after wearing that thing for a month. And then two weeks in these thick mittens where I can't use my hands and a spit hood as well, so I cannot even eat or drink without help. That was the worst of everything. This is just boring.
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[ One could count Ellen and Jo, but they are gone and in heaven and Castiel still survives on. ]
I suppose you have a point, there are worse places to be. [ Like hell. ] That certainly seems like overkill for a punishment, I sincerely doubt it fit the crime.
[ Castiel personally thinks his was too much, but there wasn't a damned thing he could do about it. ]
You deserve better.
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[She laughs.] I told you I'm not a nice person. I don't really deserve better though, or everyone does, I suppose. Nasty people don't get nice things. Or they shouldn't anyway. See, an angel playing with the devil and buying me treats. Perhaps even you are corrupted to my wickedness now, and I'll lead you into trouble too.
[Eponine cuddles her doll for a moment, looking anything but wicked.]
Are they here? Dean and them? Or are you all alone?
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I've said similar...I had a collar on at the time that would shock me when I spoke out. It was very inconvenient. Maybe we're both just troublemakers.
[ He has to smile at that though, he's been a sinful pain in the ass ever since the day he met Dean. Meeting that man changed him. ]
He's here. There were other angels here, but they're gone now. My brother Gabriel, and my sister Anael. I miss them.
CW Casual mentions of domestic abuse, child abuse, child trafficking, murder
[She shrugs it off.] They are not very nice to submissives here, Castiel. Your punishment is dreadful. But if you like trouble, me, I am happy to help you make it.
[She just wants friends, honestly, and if it means getting into trouble to keep them, she will willingly do it.]
What were they like? I have some brothers and a sister too. She is Azelma, and she is stupid. Always she cries. She is cold or hungry or something hurts or someone spits at her. As if we are not all so. I do what I can to save her, but... [She shrugs.] She has to learn. I take her beatings when I can, she makes that much fuss. And I have Gavroche, but he ran away and he lives in the elephant now. Sometimes he lets me sleep there too, but usually, no. He don't want my Pa or 'Parnasse to find him and bring him back. And my Ma had two babies but she sold 'em. I don't know what happened to them. They're lucky if they're dead.