No. You are my brother in arms, my brother in the gutter. I like you. Not love you like that. But... like we are together, no? The men in my life are not cowards, but it is by shouting and being as vile as they that you are heard. Do you think, when they call me a gaping whore that I sit and say how handsome they are? When they call me an easy slut what opens her legs for any old cock, do you think I sit and nod my head mildly? Agron, I shout back and call them wrinkly bastards and no ballers. Neither of you will tell me so I thought to taunt it from him. No?
[ That....calms him down a little. He's no less angry, but he's silent for a moment as he tries to calm himself down, because fuck the gods, he understands. So when he speaks again he is not shouting, but he is no less sharp. ]
You do not need to throw insult for me to hear you, but you may shout at me as much as desired if it suits. James will not rise to insult like I do, and I do not believe he would hesitate to cut fucking throat in response. Do not make me choose between you and him, because you will not like fucking result. I will not protect you from him when you act in error of your own making. Do you fucking understand me?
How? Agron, if I can't stay with you, there's nowhere else to go except back.
[There's silence.]
I don't want charity. Don't want people to take me in as a favour for you. It's different if they choose me, but no one ever does. It doesn't matter. The Down rooms are well enough. What more do I need than a bed anyway?
It is honest at least. It’s better than up there. No one can take it away from me. No one can tell me to get out. That is your risk now, if your master ever gets tired of you. Trust me, Agron. When you come from nothing like us, it is a lot to lose.
[There’s a small pause.]
Thank you. I’d like to be as strong and as fierce as you I think.
I was right, and this is not the same. I have already told you James has no fucking desire to keep me as your Domina did you. If he did, I would speak of him just the same as I do her.
I think I was blind for a while, you know? I didn't even realise she was my mistress like that. I didn't even realise I was a servant.
[There's a pause]
I'm going to have a bonfire on the beach and burn all of the clothes she made me wear. You can come if you like. I'm going to take some sweets and that from the shop and warm them over the fire. At least my freedom, such as it is, will taste sweet.
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Date: 2024-03-07 11:17 pm (UTC)The men in my life are not cowards, but it is by shouting and being as vile as they that you are heard. Do you think, when they call me a gaping whore that I sit and say how handsome they are? When they call me an easy slut what opens her legs for any old cock, do you think I sit and nod my head mildly? Agron, I shout back and call them wrinkly bastards and no ballers. Neither of you will tell me so I thought to taunt it from him. No?
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Date: 2024-03-10 02:59 pm (UTC)You do not need to throw insult for me to hear you, but you may shout at me as much as desired if it suits. James will not rise to insult like I do, and I do not believe he would hesitate to cut fucking throat in response. Do not make me choose between you and him, because you will not like fucking result. I will not protect you from him when you act in error of your own making. Do you fucking understand me?
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Date: 2024-03-10 03:19 pm (UTC)[She sounds sullen, but she understands. This is what she understands. Rough talk, threats, easy consequences.]
Do you want me to apologise?
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Date: 2024-03-11 11:17 pm (UTC)No, I think such action would be unwise. What's done is fucking done. But you could turn apologies to me for what was said.
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Date: 2024-03-11 11:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-03-12 11:03 pm (UTC)[ That is her last warning. Then, he sighs. ]
You cannot stay here now.
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Date: 2024-03-12 11:05 pm (UTC)[Her voice catches.]
I got nowhere else to go. Just the Down. Please, Agron. I’ll sleep on the floor. Please.
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Date: 2024-03-14 11:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-03-14 12:07 pm (UTC)You won’t listen if I argue my case, will you?
Fine. I can look after myself anyway.
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Date: 2024-03-17 10:41 pm (UTC)And yet I still seek to look after you for some reason fucking unknown to me. You cannot stay here, but do not take that to mean I will not assist.
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Date: 2024-03-17 10:48 pm (UTC)[There's silence.]
I don't want charity. Don't want people to take me in as a favour for you. It's different if they choose me, but no one ever does. It doesn't matter. The Down rooms are well enough. What more do I need than a bed anyway?
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Date: 2024-03-19 09:40 pm (UTC)The inn in the Down is livable. If you do not seek to find a place to live up here, then you could do worse than those beds.
I'll teach you how to defend yourself.
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Date: 2024-03-19 09:43 pm (UTC)[There’s a small pause.]
Thank you. I’d like to be as strong and as fierce as you I think.
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Date: 2024-03-27 02:31 pm (UTC)You will need be, as you keep fucking doing what you have been commanded not to do. Do not fucking call him my master again.
[ What he hates the most is that she's putting doubt in him. ]
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Date: 2024-03-27 03:48 pm (UTC)[She thinks he’s being unfair but she has the sense to shut up too.]
I suppose you were right in the end though.
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Date: 2024-03-31 10:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-03-31 09:14 pm (UTC)[There's a pause]
I'm going to have a bonfire on the beach and burn all of the clothes she made me wear. You can come if you like. I'm going to take some sweets and that from the shop and warm them over the fire. At least my freedom, such as it is, will taste sweet.